It's horrible, isn't it? I cried before every scan, and nearly vomited, and tried to talk DH out of the 12 week scan because I just couldn't face bad news.

But to get through the days, the average normal days in between, I just used the mantra of "the majority of pregnancies survive." Especially after the dating scan. Before that, I just didn't get excited at all. Just took that mantra and repeated it to myself over and over and over.

And I sent this little baby all the love I could possibly muster, thanking it for any precious time we could have together. That helped a lot too.